My Mindfreak Secrets

Naturally me..=)

2010-01-22T11:30:00.003+08:00

Review back once said that you need to be urself before u act on other character..well,kinda wicked wen life do provide ways for us to be something we wish we'rent...

haha..its been long time i didn't write..and i guess new year resolution me starting my new plans and needs in sense that i bought a new phone, a new way to take pics...and by the end its like still ending up wonder how not to fail in life..well in this moment i m ME..the naturally me.

now listening to techno a bit...arggghhh..me insanite motion now...ahahaha=D...bought few new things..luv them..TODDLES!

Love EggNog ^_^

2009-12-10T22:07:00.003+08:00

have u ever felt when both eggs combine and make a good tasteful egg for u..thats wat been happen to me...wish this fragile egg of my heart stay strong forever and never being broken.

Bulan Baru or New Moon?which is sound better...

2009-12-06T23:04:00.002+08:00

haha..u noe something..i didn't plan anything on today's wherebout and where should i be going today..at least where i noe..i let my days goes by me and i follow it..'Caching' they say..we'll i dunno wats it meant but it's sound catchy...haha,today was a funny and suprisely i have fun today n in matter affect that i like the flow of my day today..but i end up tragic event where my Sony Phone broke down and im furiously silently frustated..in sense that..i wan my phone to be norrrrmaaalll please..haiya,why should u broke down on the time i really dun have the budget to buy a new phone or even fix it...haish.

but saw it oredy,the second saga of Twilight..'New Moon'..okey,okey la the movie..still make me hanging what would Edward Cullen do in this situation that Bella Swan wanna be a various vamps in the next movie...haha,but seriously according to books..its running away from the real content of the fiction of the book..so this movie not so thrilling as the first one...hihi..so bet it..i saw it and its a satisfactory that i did saw it and enjoy my day today eventhough i suffered some pinches from someone..give me some bruises..=)

Its Upper Age(+21)..ahaha..juz for fun.!

2009-12-01T22:36:00.002+08:00

imagine that when u see a bunch of guys standing on the line of the frontline wearing color helmet n without wearing clothes...hahaha..taken this pics for fun...:P

I miss eating waffles during exam...n_n

2009-12-01T22:09:00.005+08:00

it's was a surprise moment during exam really bring the headache out of me for a week,despite it all truly myself suppressing my head n mind to the ground i think...

lots of moment i think i needed to despair cause a lot of times..i think..n think..n think until to much that i though im the one who did it wrong but exactly in sense i see that someone is does even like me from the first place...urrmm..what a shame eventually that time i noe who that person for best way just follow my life n forget this nonsense away from my life..instead this exam time..this food being a friend to my moody day...this food below...

well this is my waffles,pick up the brand new appetite during exam..its make me calm n not stress after eating it...ummmeey..Chocolate waffles...ahaha

but during the exams nite goin by..i discover something the middle of the evening around 6:06 p.m...the weather of Miri..in my certified that i really cant believe it that the temperature is cold n its doesn't have the breeze or wind...and the sky projected a orange enviroment and supposely it became quite all sudden where the place where i pass by always become quite..its strange and scary..ahaha..serious feeling but yup,it happen not all sudden..i capture dz during that time..its supposely still bright but that evening it became orange...ahaha..strange!!@.@...

To die or to cry..can't use both....:(

2009-11-14T22:10:00.007+08:00

hello bloggy..and anyone out ther..mysteriously i should be happy and in sense that im getting commonly approach by greatness that God given me this past years... unsuspectingly through this few weeks,it was very disturbing when the college wanted me to pay my final semester final fees..dats mean i finish paying the sums of money..in another factor..i going to graduate in middle of next year..this is something unusual to say but suddenly brought by the appreciativeness of it..Goin to back back to Sabah soon..actually i getting bored in Miri oredy now... :|..yup,life is dull.

imagine my last semester in this college..its around next year.

okie jump to the conclusion of the title to die or to cried..well,seriously was unsuspected i seing a husband violating to abuse his wife in front of me and threaten me with asking me still want to stay in the house or not,in fact the rent oredy paid and say dat SHIT THING to me You though say a dummie ka...hurrmmm..serious matter,of why i just when back from my daily youth meeting in EYM (El-Shaddai Youth Ministry)..decide to come back early and in fact God made me see something that inappropriate for me to face..because he is fighting his wife in the car, and putting her wife outside the house by locking the front door,when i came back i discover she is sleeping in the car..well,its was raining..but HELL its not light rain, MAN have some compassion lah bha with the wife sitting outside the rainy heavily like beggar asking for money under the BRIDGE,its kind of really insane to see when the husband approach the door,and the wife trying to get in,she struggle to get in, and they start to quarrel and strangling in front of me,their body keep on hitting the door..they were like two professional wrestler in the anywhere falls match in WWE like i always watch in the DVD's i bought..in the moment of struggling, the wife requested me to call the authorities,i guess the cops she means,but the INHUMANE IGNORANT HUSBAND threaten me if i wanted to stay,try to call the cops..he make sure i will be the same fate as his wife..well,i that moment tragically i cant make a proper decision either to save myself and mind my own business or even just save my real owner dat is the wife..in decent time,the husband ask me quickly want to come in,so i take a decision to get in, and his wife told me that i will find another places to rent..by then it was like WTH !..i need to move out by the end of the month..its really not fair...that time when i really want to moved out,cause i noe this would happen again...so i say again, should i die or to cry for the inhumane tragedy happen to the wife who still sitting outside the door,either to help or to save my life...God i noe this not a good way,but seriously i have to take the path i have to be who i am,and become the HERO.

Never imagined..wink.wink!!

2009-11-07T11:56:00.009+08:00

really undiscovered that what i saw in this movie...is very frightening especially the adopt child is a grown up...OM....i really cant believed when i saw Orphan : Something wrong with Esther.

well there more movie i saw during my baby(cute laptop) was on repairment...

G-Force..nice

funny bout also scary

and the champ is here.....bye2 Randy Orton..ur not fit to become champion....

Its U i discover.....=)

2009-11-07T11:36:00.002+08:00

through las night was something obviously exciting for me...real unsuspected i already felt that i fallen in sceptically fall for U(not her Real Name)....in sense that u have make me smile this few days and thinking bout it i discovered that maybe U r the one who been sent by God to make me happy...Dear2..mitch You...dun tell u but u have make me ur truly rated prize in this life n ur worthiness in my life i have discover...i haven't say i love u but i know ur surely the one that i have searching for now...For u i sitting down here dripping down words for u..to say my first attempt for U...to say i wan U......XOXO..toddles wif LOve..

U FOUND ME....:)..make me smile...

2009-11-06T13:47:00.003+08:00

huhu..i realize something more useful than being here alone..God plan something i didn't discover since last year..i did this most ignorance towards this matter where i didn't know that discovery is the confession what been lying in h**'s heart...without releasing the motion matter towards the most i didn't did this most years in Miri..is to SMILE....hehe..it hard for me to smile this past years...but now i noe wat to see in my life...is You..DeaR2=)

Kenapa Bha..??

2009-11-02T14:30:00.003+08:00

Bha.Bha.Bha....ahahaha now then..its been long.long time i didn't write down my sadness n depressions..hmmmm..guessing not in the mood i think...well.well...how should i start with this...

well,its started with my baby gets sick cause by motherboards problem..n now i have to spend my whole weeks till exam time without my baby by my side..still under repair still...hrrrrr....cause me sick.sick.sick...lama.lama jadi gila oredy me...haiyo...well dz time im kinda stress out a bit coz...i stil hav 27 days left till going back home..so day oh day..please changes as fast as u can..cause i cant stand sitting here without any happiness around me...:(

despite now im currently subjective with chasing up each and every assignment here in this college lab..huh.huh...really exhausted coz i dun feel fine instead by then i think of taking a full rest of my confusing life rite now...Dear God u hear me help me out of this mindfreak misery...please..by then u sent me an angel few days ago....n im coming back to the heart of ur precious one..=D

Do u write dz story.....huhu=D

2009-10-14T10:45:00.003+08:00

i was wonder..did i wrote dz during im still start to learn to write during primary school...=P
(took dz from a Facebook friends photos)..i took it coz its exciting,funny and enjoy to make us think what we where when we were ones small funny thinking kids...=D..Toddles!!
Hantu yg takut bukan saya..ahahahaha

Missing You Go To Soon...(^.^;)

2009-10-13T12:22:00.004+08:00

where bout i should say..u didn't let me hug u the last time before you go...
~Betsy 'D'Evil Ear' Naughty~
(oct 2008-oct 2009)
hmmm,gonna miss ur biting my hand n spontaneous licks for now....... :'(

My Darling get into COMA....huhu(Sad mode)

2009-10-07T11:03:00.002+08:00

it happen during 4th of October when my cute laptop which been with me for a year and five month went into a sudden shut down whereby i didn't realize that it would never be switch on later...at that moment i was surfing the internet where i was on the track on finishing my moral ethics research on sex education in Malaysia,but unfortunate that it broke down during the last gasp of time left of the computer battery lifeline...instead i was worrying about the laptop..i didn't realize that i couldn't be switch on after that..when i was on the mood buying couple of snack and few box of my fav Season Soya Bean boxs to bring home, while i bought a new sets of earplugs @ earphones to replaces my recent earpieces use for my MP3 nano player...
so i decide to buy another earphones for my laptop...but in sense i was happily going back a relief in my heart, wanted to continue my research on this assignment..i was shocked n really dunno what to do when i try to switch on my laptop couple of times but it wont work at all...so i did make a decision on thinking and looking at my hand phone watch and looking at exact 7.00 p.m where the computer shop is still available...so i took my bath...n straight went to the mall hurrying enough to noe wats happen to my cute laptop....
when i arrive at the computer shop, i was asking the person in charge on servicing and repairing on computer,he said that i need to put my laptop overnite to investigate the problem...by the next day,he told me dat my laptop couldn't be switch on n the problem is my main board or mother board in sense is malfunction and needed to change for a huge amount..i was surprise to hear the price of the mainboard for a laptop...RM1,200...sucskss..wher am i gonna find that money in time for my recent assignment n presentation that is on this month...such a disappointment for me through out the day...until now i think..still thinking...hmmmm....:'(

but now all i can do..with further more bad things happen to me now..i thinks this is karma for me for a while despite the moment here where i have to return to basis wher i started my college life without any help from the laptop for now,everyday doing assignment at college lab each n every day,hope that my laptop come back to life soon,really miss cute laptop for agony three days oredy...hope i can remain strong without it for around 50 days or more....staying at home reading notes n scraping on novel's that i bought,maybe read my fav book,Bible instead..maybe this would be a good time to read in sense..read some sense of my mind...:|

Marudi's Raya....part 1(18-28 Sept 09)

2009-10-02T13:11:00.011+08:00

well,let the pics tell u the stories....=)..we travel through road dz
Raya..my destination was Marudi ,Sarawak.

the car was stuck on the brand new made soil road...when it did slide down from the same pathway we did...

the dangerous pathway where we didn't manage drive up ...end up sliding down back...but after 1 hour,we did find another road which we manage to continue the way to Marudi..

the beauty of the forest from Miri to Marudi...

the authentic sunset from inside the car..which u see got a lot of soil sticking on the glass...

juz waiting for the vehicle ferry to the pass way marudi..Radin side...

the looks of their car after our travelling through rusty,rocky n soil sticky dangerous jungle tracking with this vehicle...
hummm..quite fantastic adventure on day 1..=D..toddles!

you dont have to call me....n break my heart =.='

2009-10-02T13:01:00.003+08:00

keep on wonder whisper wat would happen if the world is stuck a hole full of the things you wish to have but the end u get up and get with different things that you less expected..and it did get me thinking what have been moving through my decent life and i trying to listen to what my head says more than my heart tells me..well,it did make me feel acceptable for a while but at last my heart just wont let it go for a minute for me to use my head,cause that wat makes me not the real me....wonder why i have to do the things i dun really want to do..i just want to have fun in a way i feel n i dun wan to follows people ways..why cant u understand my life is in ur pre-trap n i dun wan to move ur way...i got my way,n u solve ur orite...i can help u once not all times..i just an ORDINARY person....with problems toO..dun aDD up my problems..think.think.think...ur my fren n b a fren not my master..

O...pink Raya...!!@.@

2009-09-23T14:04:00.004+08:00

huhu,,,guess what Raya day specials...PINK!!
haha..my baju melayu dz yeaR..WEAR PINKISH RAYA!!
SELAMAT ARI RAYA ON LAST WEEK SUNDAY TILL NOW!!

its Me tellin "I Love U"God.. ;)

2009-09-18T02:40:00.002+08:00

ever wonder..when u write something special to Jesus??=D

we did cook Good..but we not gettin' IT today.

2009-09-18T02:25:00.005+08:00

well i did my EYM cooking competition for the second time...well i didnt won dz year but i was satisfied with wat i cook...coz i realise that i like to cook than to win the competition,i was havin fun at that time...hehe..my hobby n passion...thankz of all of U...Esther, Aaron, Krystal, and Cheryl..u been very helpful n co-operative team i ever have in a certain period of time..we did finish earlier than other group...

the dish are:
1)kueh tiaw goreng with eggs n tauge,with slices of fish balls
2) chicken lemon paste with Esther special delicious lemon sauce..thanks Esther!!
3)Midin with chili padi plus some minced balls
4) my Dumpling @ popia Goreng..pastor says its like Taiwan fried dumpling..ahaha..i dunno..but i get it.

TODDLES!! Have time Cooking at home.

Yum.Yum..should i say

2009-09-09T05:01:00.006+08:00

typical rite when ur sittin eating sweet-sweet donuts..ate it this time..i guess my fourth times..guess three times each with the same friend..hehe,cant tell..shhhtt..lets make it private n confidential for a while..haha..:D..well i would suggest if u see a Big Apple Donuts shop..dun miss it,coz u will regret it if u dun visit it..coz i noe i didn't..:)

all i remember is Say Cheese (my favorite), Kiwi Blizt(another favorite), Dancing Queen, Mango Tango, Chocoholic, and Nut Something(forget the name..aiyo)

Guess its been long i didnt met Him...

2009-09-09T04:03:00.003+08:00

Guess who i met when i was in Parkson, Bintang Mall, Miri...Barney...yuhoo..i did take a pics with my favorite friend since i was a kiddo..(cool to call it that way)..seing Barney its just like being with Him..with his favourite song "I love U, U love Me, We happy family, With a great biG hug, and a Kiss froM mE to You, Wont u Say u Love mE toO...
haha, its been very long-long-soo called long time i didnt hear that sOng...yup.yup.im not afraid to admit im addicted to Barney still even though im now over the ages to like Barney..like Barney giggles..khukhukhuss..i dunno how to spell it right..but it sound like dat..haha,miss my younger ages time where i can watch the t.v from 8 a.m till 5 p.m...thats y i wearing spectacles now..ahaha,cute me!!

haha,here my favorite Friend from past till my life ends..he say I love U aLwaYS..!!

Cooleticted

2009-09-03T09:31:00.005+08:00

this are the new word that describe me through yesterday College christian fellowship.. Wow,i just cant believe it do really repeats the three attitude that i have given by all the friends of my collegue in the christian fellowship...

COOL + ATHLETIC + TALENTED = COOLETICTED..Guess what??

That's What i am....hehe..here some Cooleticted pics of my attitude.

cant desribe what that mean..seriously....heheK:D..Toddles!

Currently listening to....Love

2009-09-03T08:54:00.004+08:00

hey bloggy..since then when i was on9 on the facebook chapter of my days, i viewing few music video and found some songs are good to hear..so i downloads some songs and its in my me blue playlist....

my top 10 playlist of this week :

1) Stay - Estrella
2) One Love - Jordan Spruitt
3) Terlanjur Cinta - Rossa feat Pasha (ungu)
4) Falling Down - Selena Gomez
5) Behind This Hazel Eyes - Kelly Clarkson
6) Cause A Scene - Teairra Mari feat Florida
7) Battlefield - Jordin Sparks
8) Obsessed (remix)- Mariah Carey feat Gucci Mane
9) Dont Forget - Demi Levato
10) Eat You Up - BoA

but now still searching new songs, Love scene here...juz dun Kiss & Tell...

Hujan, becek, tak da Ojek...:D

2009-09-02T02:40:00.003+08:00

Saw this two movie...

Bought the DVD's...enjoy it...and Cinta Laura can dance..WOW!!

here we go again...:C

2009-08-28T04:32:00.006+08:00

Its a wonderful day in a town named Miri..its supposed to be as perfect as it could be but recently keep looking back what i have been through and overcomes some call pressure, stress, limitation to express unwillingness to evaporate the feeling inside and wonder "How Come"...as Malaysian said..
Picture this..in certain amount of time, i been over wondering..its that an appealing word...well,i guess..keep on whistle to an ear where bout i been tracking through back and forth to see i have so little time to spend in this place called Miri...well, now i thinking a lot of picture taking..its gonna be a blast..

BTW....i bought a little friend of mine that i been eyeing for couple of month but at sight,i managed to get it for real....

let me present to U...my little blue me.."dats wat i called it.."
its a MP3 player..but very portable to bring coz its small and easy to carry..heheK..so i enjoying music eventhough i anywhere noisy..but at least i relax while walking..hehe..Music pleasure...Toddles!in sephia image

promoting Chelsea..not dz blue me.

Goal fever....saw it all....:D

2009-08-24T01:31:00.004+08:00

here he came again with the third trilogy...Goal 3: Taking on the World..saw it already..just bought the DVD...:D

Brown Occasions..:)

2009-08-24T01:16:00.002+08:00

Just took it for fun..and its became art...check it out at my fb n my another blog n8 p'casa...here one of outstandings pics...Toddles!!

love the scene..Selena Gomez..:)

2009-08-21T03:54:00.002+08:00

aHHHHHHHHH...she release her debut album..im waiting here,Selena..cant wait for it....Toddles!

Tear upon you...My heart desire.

2009-08-16T19:29:00.004+08:00

A sense of discover through my whole life wonder where is my stand against my self to the things i have done and to the motion and feeling that been shattered by the work of what i have been negleted in my life..so to speak sometimes i wonder should i be more insecure with what i have now or should i chase what i have been supposed to do when i have a chance,finding my true act in my life..to spread God Loves...God Bless U,bloggers!:)

jesus wept. John 11:35.

haha..dunno i post dz much....

2009-08-11T07:16:00.001+08:00

haha..Bloggy..its my 100 post dz month..n convincing i didnt realise i post dz much...hehek.btw,think about it...its all about wat really happen then...TODDLES!

We got it...Community Sheild Cup.:D

2009-08-10T00:39:00.007+08:00

Guess what...we won the FA community sheild Cup....2009..we beat Manchester United 4-1 in penalties..haha,eventhough we can win in 90 minutes..but sure impress that rooney got lucky on the ball to score equalizer in 92 minutes..haha,if not we do oso win the cup...good jobs guys...:)

we won it before..now we won again..in 2009..great start for the Blues...

Selena Gomez Magic Song...(@.@)

2009-08-09T10:48:00.002+08:00

Got it from the WOWP (Wizard Of Weaverly Place)..i dunno if i spell it rite..haha,present Magic Music...by Selena Gomez..my Cute Gal...:D

Funny kick into the heaD...

2009-08-09T10:39:00.002+08:00

kinda funny when u try to score it doesnt happen.....:D

What happen to Ryan Cabrera..??T.T

2009-08-09T10:15:00.005+08:00

sometimes I was so confuse what been happening to the Old style and the new style...hoping to see an Idol of hair trends and good looks to follow-up..but end up looking in the other different side where bout u see this is the Old Ryan Cabrera...

u see hope smart and good looking hair trends he have..with the song he writes that time was about how do I know how U fell..that a simple summarize of his songs meant....

but now I was wondering about his new looks..he does look unhealthy,unwell and specifically into husky and hunky style...i know people do mature but in this sense its just not him at all....try take an evaluation on the current Ryan Cabrera....

You understand what i meant..he had a mustache and he looks unwell, and seems like he went into a car crash and now he's back from retirement from Young Ryan Cabrera...OM....its missing...:(

We're one in the same..

2009-08-09T09:54:00.004+08:00

wuuuhooo...get wat? im back in town..coincidence that Miri is under haze attack..and the weather aint hot as usually,me like that..but to find a reason to go out,well because of the haze...i need to stay at home period of time..just to protect myself from gettin sick and end up some where lying back and thinking why do i get sick...hehek...funny rite??

but before that,well i officially saw PPP (Princess Protection Program),starring Selena Gomez and her bestie fren of the whole world Demi Levato...and both of them speak Spanish..well,i thought Demi wasnt Latin...but she speak fluent spanish..Wow!!yup,Selena totally CUTE..Toddles!

Feeling fast ??:)

2009-08-01T12:32:00.003+08:00

hahaha....i watch dz Fast n Furious trilogy recently...i totally dig the Nissan Skyline....my favourite car for all my life...hehe...:)

by the ways ,i saw this four films for five times already..ready to change...the parts that needs submissions....

Finally...relief :)

2009-08-01T11:31:00.004+08:00

Remember how my holiday going through..realising what going to be done but at least all i know is that im really couldn't satisfied with my 1 month holiday..wishing its pass through very speedy..n seriously i left 6 days till i be back to Oil Town...hehek...but what the fuss,at least some of the current problem is resolve in the period of time...currently cause by Telekom building in Sandakan burned down...the internet line went absent for a long 4 days..dang,dat time i was goin insane..but i really relieve that im working dat time...hihi....

the pics taken when i was in the car...reflection of the nite lights..

well, i was wearing my new hat..guess wat hat is that??

painful JOB...:)

2009-07-23T13:39:00.005+08:00

heyhey bloggy..see wat happen to me...??
its not public cane,or hit by a belt...
but its from the wild grass at the back of my house...
those wild grass really itch my skin really hard until u see the scratch mark on my skin...firstly i was suprise when i saw it..but instead i took a picture that never cut wild grass with ur bare hands and unprotected ur arms...
btw, i really harsh dat time..its itch my skin the whole nite..try to think of it..its really written some symbolic sign..hehe.

PINUX....the penguin

2009-07-16T09:58:00.002+08:00

wonder if u are a PENGUIN living in an dry world,which penguin dont survive in dry land..always wonder wher to go,what to do,and even try to understand things that couldnt be understand by a normal person..u noe im stuck in dz dilemma where bout the two person i care about actually dislike one another..wish God tell me the way to solve this problem..eventhough is small matter and im not supposely to be busybody in their girls issues but i do really care about them,i really do...:)..well,hope i find a way to solve it soon...here come me..

my childhood fav Christmas dish

2009-07-13T22:48:00.004+08:00

Salad.....Salad....yummy to stomach...heyheyhey bloggy..guess wat i ate for the whole day today...homemade SalaD..which contain macerroni(didnt spell it rite i think),potatoes(soft n sweet),apples(red ones),raisins,mayo cream n Heinz Salad sauce...well,haha..i ate this container(not the container,i mean the salad..haha)..and now its midnite and still craving for more...arghhhh...me hungry..:)

AfraiD....(x_X)

2009-07-10T21:31:00.003+08:00

hurmmmm...i think i feel symptoms...this where i usually think i easily to be kill than die suffering of a disease..i really wonder what happen just to sit ther in the bed and just waiting for miracle or magical to happen..by just lookin when i went in to the hospital this evening,to visit my grandmother sister,also my grandmother,she was sick,thank God she fine now..when she was in the female's ward..i just walking to the pathway out of the female ward..i saw a teenage girl,aged around 14-16 years old,get isolated in a bed with some kind of netting surrounding her,her face were trademark of sadness and looks like she been there for few weeks..and she all alone..wonder how would i feel if i were left out like dat..i was wonder in my mind,beside we are free from that disease yet sometimes we are forgetful that we still have someone to be love..and especially to the teenage gurl,which i certified maybe she get the virus oredy..and in sense she feel lonely...just think about it..its let me think a lot this time..Think About It..!!:)

Inflammation of feelings....

2009-07-07T03:50:00.003+08:00

my life is juz like this fire which i took when i lighten up the rotten wood for grillin the talapia for lunch during in Marudi...
why did i say my life is like this fire because i reasonable can be flammable contrast of people attention but i dun felt dat much appreciation while im doin dat...so instead of dat i juz dunno wats rite..and wats wrong in sense my heart tell me the truth and my mind tell me the different stories that should be told...
so in a matter in fact that i been giving a lot to all my friends and people i love and know but not regardlessly appreciate myself,and in fact that when i involve myself..i get stuck and i need to find myself a way out of that,and well now im not really feeling happy bout dat..cause i think i already involve in people business a lot..so i was thinkin dat im goin to avoid tragic way that i need to have my own life back...i need LOVE was there were nice to have.:"(

Im back for unreal...=)

2009-07-07T03:37:00.003+08:00

heyhey..heyo..wats up bloggy..its been a long two weeks i havent written u any more news bout me..well,in sense i been busy and kinda hooking up with a lot of things...

in sense, today is the last day of exam and my brain is intoxicated with too much reading in this past week..when i was in Marudi for a week..a lot of stress came out,and i though this supposed to be a week where distraction is goin away from me...but...nooooo...distraction keeps on coming no matter where u go...thats why i dun feel really calm this study week..well,seriously its not my problem but u want me to be involve..reasonably im not a relationship solve person,and i came to study not to involve in your love drama...please lah my friend..btw,i did study,nt 100 %,but its nor something i wish to involve in...seriously,if u can..let me go and live ur life to the fullest my friend...:)

Cloudy,Moody and Lonely

2009-06-21T11:15:00.002+08:00

cant realise it's been a year oredy i been a singular item in my life..a lot of people thinking i have someone special to share with but i dun..juz always figure in and out the reason y am i still in total available today..juz wonder a single anniversary signal your 1 year old being a bachelor...ahaha...really,when i went back from church dz morning,i look at the sky and it's enviroment reminds me of the phrase that i been spoken now...wondering,wondering, and wondering..am i too covered up and dun want to search the ONE...or am i juz afraid to get hurt again like recent breakup's was very painful and can bear that i suffer imsomnia and depression :"C for almost half a year..coincidently cant expect anything to happen in a relationship especially the other side dun really love u dat much as i have put all mine to her..such a pity and stupid am i to really love dat gurl for sure she been dating other while i been that far from her...

heehee,y do i need to replay all my memories again..is it juz coincidentally i saw a couple look alike wat we were before and i keep on listening to unwanted sad songs at everywhere i go...so,bloggy i need to write u for a duration of 10 days i havent written u in n i juz recently got into sense dat there still someone loves me even though im alone...God is still with me to keep me strong...n hope to find myself the "One".....

I be gone in few days...

2009-06-11T12:27:00.003+08:00

heyhey bloggys,i be gone in a few days here...i going to this youth camp,organise by Randy's church...so i be flurish myself with God words and up against something call heart...i fall in love again....:D
be with Him for few days..then i be back to the real world...papai u fantasize world...:D

tired....:'!U

2009-06-08T23:31:00.008+08:00

came on recently...i been subjectly didnt slept for almost a week..(in sense that its been 5 days already)..try to think of it..its quite suprise me dat i been negleting my sleeping habit to became a certain disease i called CANT SLEEP AND CANT DREAM...

well,nothing exciting to expect when u just came back for class but quite recently on yesterday and today..there are lot of events that maybe excites the unsuspected reason why i did enjoy myself this both exciting freakish days....

i)i was started to enjoy walking around and moving here and there with myself with my eyes getting sore each and everyday....

ii)i enjoying eating fast food this both day...Marry brown's fish and chips..(quite ok lha if urgent lunch)..n Mc'D mcChicken burger dz afternoon....

iii)i didn't rest my head down...coincidence my body fell sleepy but my head wasn't...so Head go to sleep...

iv)i didn't realise people are watching at my movement..coz a snack bar gurl from cinema said that they are interested in me...(haha..i almost got shock-attack..seriously!!)..btw,thanks for the notice....:D

v)last nite me and my best friend n his cousin when for an adventure experiences of joyride,well respectly said in 11.45 p.m...at Taman tunku area...his cousin was very daring to ride on the top of the Kancil front bonet...but we end up to an unknown place where they say is very creepy house inside the somewher in tmn Da Sing,his cousin jump up the top of the car when we reach to the spot..he was urging to move,but he jumps to scare,that time really became a crazy bada**(cannot say)..laugh myself to cannot breath...its very cold dat time..n the house was very very glimsp(really haunted view)..in Tmn Tunku...btw,we did roaming all around tmn tunku before that....im consider already an unknown resident in tmn tunku...ahaha..smile back!!

vi)i didn't sleep yesterday and im goin mad i think..huhu..hope not...:C

btw,im having my bible of safety Law tomorrow...its gonna be hectic inside and outside..its goin to be hot and cold,in and out,up and down...:P

O_o TOddLeS!!

my photo addict type....hurrrrhh!!:E

2009-06-07T03:35:00.003+08:00

watch out for my newest photo blog..feature pics that been capture few years back but still a memories....not yet made but the photo brand is made currently..be sure to notice this....

coming soon....my photography life....:D

checkin of my mood recently_my whole life since 2008...

2009-06-07T00:52:00.004+08:00

hehe...checking back on my webcam picture..i flip on few folder of my previous webcam pics..i discover this picture quite interest me and during my recent past life..i did look through and i been sad lately..i seldom smile but im quite understand why people keep on askin me about my feelings and my face reaction..sorry guys make u worry but dz is me..
dz is the recent me....
im trying thinkin wat am i supposed to be...
i been trying to find the light to shine me...
now i noe who i am...
there's no use to holdin back...
dz is me....

haha..my over laps lips..dat time i was with my laptop when the current when off at Sandakan at my home..:{

need to find a reason to smile again(T_T)

my week during Gawai..lost days...:X

2009-06-07T00:34:00.003+08:00

wish to think dat its been six days i been sitting around at home doing nothing and now i'm standing in front of UK fun fair at boulevard car park space,where i'm waitin for a fren..where i took this pics of my shadow remind me that i'm a lost image of myself during this holidays,so alone here n despair....creepy rite??:S

Beautifully Broken...:Z

2009-06-03T03:20:00.004+08:00

kinda restless coz is Wednesday...

kinda sleepless coz is not a happy way...

kinda useless when people judge it that way...

kinda stupid if u wan me dat way...

kinda crazy if u wan me coz dat im look at ur way...

kinda naughty when u play me different side way....

kinda silly if u love me coz im not avoiding ur way...

kinda out of reason coz u break dat day...

shut up n listen..im not ur way..

Day OF boredness..Day 1..O_o

2009-06-01T14:10:00.002+08:00

ARHHH..IM GoiN NUtS OREdY..!!

the day become much more difficult for me..cause of dz Gawai / Kaamatan school / college holiday / festive break its really killing my head randomly because i have no where to go and im stuck in dz typical place i called under the roof top...ROOM...me hidden room...im am sitting in the room try to figure out what's should i do and which should i decide to do..Well,recently i successfully did according to dz few subjects below:
I) read Bible....Done it twice a day..
II) read OSHA act 514 law book..its for my Mid term exam....
III) watch previous movies.. p.s- I'm gettin bored....
IV) Lastly,play FIFA 08 at my laptop for the whole day if can..but i syg my laptop...sorry FIFA 08
V) Oppsss..forget...this is the thing i always do...SLEEP..zzZZZzzz...ZzZzzz....

but i actually wanna do is dz....:
GEt Out and Hav Fun..but no one to Hav Fun Wit...so Sad......:'(

Celebration in the team...spoof pics..

2009-05-31T14:35:00.007+08:00

the team gobble up during the win over Arsenal in semi final

Goal scoring master

Captain Marvel-Chelsea own John Terry

My Idol..Frank Lampard

The Blues Glory....30 May 2009

2009-05-31T14:00:00.021+08:00

Blue parade (Everton and Chelsea fans)

We the FA Cup champions 08/09

among Chelsea successful manager

Saying goodbye to Chelsea for the last time...

the first glory cup under Guus Hiddick....

we did it in Wembley again...

Lampard celebration spirits

We here..and we did it.

After score the first goal,with Ballack and Drogba

Lampard turns around the post to give his winning goal-style

Lampard ready to give a powerful shot

Mikel hold by Felainni

Ballack refresh himself

Hiddink standing in front of Everton coaching staff...daring!!

Blistering header from Drogba

after Drogba heads the first goal

almost score by Malouda

I like this......

after i been supporting Chelsea since 2003...i have seen 2 league title,2 carling cup(English cup),1 community Winner Cup, and now add to collection an FA cup dz year....Go blues,forever flying high...:D

The Blues is flying high for last glimsp....of 08/09 season

2009-05-31T13:25:00.006+08:00

Guess what..We won the FA cup 2009 yesterday...we beat Everton in tragic 2-1,scored by Drogba and Lampard but really surprise by Luis Saha goal wihich less than a minute...Wow....but We won our fifth FA cup title,and im proud that Guus Hiddink which secure the only cup won under him during his charge at Chelsea F.C... bravo and continue ur quest to help Russia win their first World Cup glory...We are FA cup Champions...!!!

My Hero, Idol n Chelsea talisman..Frank Lampard.

BIG MAC for today....

2009-05-29T18:31:00.008+08:00

haha...kinda funny during at McD...i when there bought a Mc-Value Lunch..where i was surprise Big Mac is on the menu..haha..without thinking,i bought it..and it was the second Mc-Lunch meal i bought but this is Big Mac...a lot of country brand this burger as one of the satisfied burger sold in fast food restaurant business..so i was total enjoy but couldnt finish french fries on my own..so i took around 43 minute to finish regular size french fries...see so hard to finish it..

haha...i ate it first time..it was fine but still just other ordinary burger...LOL...!!Toddles!

Terminate T-600 complete..but to be continue..

2009-05-29T18:19:00.006+08:00

today i saw Terminator Salvation..its a trilogy of the three Terminator films..where now John Connor need to search for his father,where he is the sole survivor in Terminator 3:Rise Of the Machine..he decide to search his father according to the tapes he gets from his mother but i couldnt find the reason suddenly he became a soldier..but its an okey movie..lots of action but not dat thrill as the past Terminator film before...

Celebrity Match-Up

2009-05-27T05:01:00.008+08:00

Ashley Massaro(WWE Divas) vs Jillian Michael(Biggest Loser)

Ashley Massaro

VS

Jillian Michael

See the similarity between this two..they look like twins....haha..the internet line is still on..not sleeping until now...huhu ...get panda eyes soon...:p

a mature girl now......

2009-05-27T02:41:00.004+08:00

here we go where i now watchin dz video music by my favourite gurl Ashley Tisdale..titled "It's alright,It's OK"...kinda a rocky a bit..but the songs explain..eventhough u been gone..i will find my own life here....na..na..na...i saw it first...huhu.

here her second album now......Toddles!
btw,the room suddenly got internet line since 7 p.m until now....wow...

Orange and Kiwi (my comic saga begins)

2009-05-26T21:08:00.006+08:00

heyhey gain..i just bought this the most precious comic ever-until forever i ever wanted since high school,basically its one of the first Utopia comics...hehe,i found oredy the book,sis.....Le Gardenie part 1......look down....remember dz comic before..we try to find at Sandakan didnt find any irte..i found it oredy...read it in 1 hour....so sad the story,n some funny too..but Orange is silly fren...dats all.

Front page

in the most front page

the back page

my favorite character...KIWI.

Suprise present...Blues flying high!!

2009-05-26T18:08:00.011+08:00

Heyhey bloggy,here something i cant imagine receiving the most favourite thing in your 21st birthday...something exciting and i would thanks u all for those presents...it a Wonderful gift of ALL..my blues is flying high!!

try to guess whats in the box?......

Tata....Blues keychain merchandise...i heard they made it...no sale anywhere...

its shine by sunshine...and its has a small tingling bell on it...hehe.
but not just yet..there another...

Guess what it is....?well firstly i was guessing a towel...but its a...??

A T-shirt...wow,i saw someone wore it few days back but now i have one...i though of next week to buy coz i saw it at Saberkas market ther..but thank you..i very happy to have both of the present..appreciate it so very much.

Before i end, i would like to thank Envonve,Ying Ying,Chris,Chew,Randy,Janice,Livan, and Oscar for the presents and not forget EYM for the birthday greetings and all my frenz who remember my birthday..thank you.

love dz year birthday present....hehe..TOddles!

Its a fantastic movie..but really putting down on Christians..

2009-05-25T19:29:00.007+08:00

Last Sunday after church,i decide to go to Parkson to have a tour of the new space of it...so when i went to the cinema..i was window-looking on the film and seems have time..so i decide to see dz movie....Angels & Demons....

but firstly its alrite when Tom Hanks stars in this film with special star,Ewan Mcgroger in it...its just that since the first film came out where its makes that Christianity trying to destroy other beliefs...its make no sense why should they say that in those time where, well in sense im Catholics...i didnt agree with the stories line where Catholics church trying to destroy some kind of belief where science its over level or faith is perfect to human inner self...its not meant to be sure that it is a film but instead it make christian Catholics are bad and cruel during a long centuries ago....but if the film is meant to crush belief of the people watching i guess is not meant to be watch..sometimes people who have faith but expert in scientific matter would turns their belief and receively accept that faith is againts what they do....who is involve with sciences facts and knowledge....

well,its a fantastic movie to see..but its really do crush my heart that its putting Catholics christians in a state that they were bad religion before..i guess to the book writer Dan Brown...please dont crush people beliefs eventhough your trying to sell your stories...Toddles!!

It's All For me.....during 22nd May.

2009-05-25T12:18:00.015+08:00

Coincidentally i wanted to say this again...I'M 21...wuhoooooo....ahahaha....juz imagine dz is the third day after 21..still under progress in wat i wanted for Christmas...hehe..still a long way to go...but recently im glad i did noe a lot of friends i appreciated for all u done in my birthday and all the gift u gave to me...i didnt expect my important age of 21 is vital in my life..but maybe God's arrangement for me to noe and to be flurish by u all...Thanks again...

haha,my birthday..actually i noe i have a birthday surprise on dat day becoz of Envonve,she organizes the day for me..Thank u to u if u reading this text...im happy on dat day...dun worry,hope u happy too...??u happy rite?...b happy with me....
my birthday cake is a cheese cake..Wow...dun be jealous sis...hahak...

haha..we dun have any number candle...but still can create magnificient of numberusing candle placement...u see the two on the top is 2..and the under is 1..so is 21...not 2+1..huhuhu.

this is when the cheese cake lighten up... then here comes the songs....
Ha...Ha...Ha....Happy....Ha.....
then here comes the conversation....

Envonve : (askin Chew)...u guy, u lead the birthday song.....
Chew : why must me....(confuse reaction)
Ying2 : b gentlemen mah,n u boy mah...u sing first lor....
Chew : (shy2 reaction)

so they sang but not really loud...coz everybody was shy2...ahahaha...cant believe we shy.....: )

hahak..me and my birthday cheese cake...huhu!!
me and Chew....:)

Envonve n Ying2...the Gurlz in my birthday suprise...

and surprise attend by Chew...Thanks for the birthday lunch.

me stuck between the GuRlz..hehe...:D

we do my birthday here....near Clara Spa... behind Parkson Mega Mall....haha

and...Envonve if u wonder i ate the last piece Cheese on Saturday morning...ahh and then my stomach kill me..plus im get sicken by it...ahahaha..crazy rite..i ate half of the cake in one day....while seing newspaper... i take the pics before i eat dz piece and went in my stomach forever..ahuhuhu...im okey now..huhu...Thank u!!!!TODDLES!

Start to get irritating....:<

2009-05-23T14:48:00.003+08:00

hey Bloggy...im start to get exhausted with the sickness here...its was quite of happy n exciting yesterday...Im 21...Day pass by a day old...from 21 today...
but the headache with flu come n disrupt my malfunction mind to think...arhhhh....Go away ur sickness..Hope to get well soon....:<

To All My Friends Out there....:D "dun hate me..."

2009-05-21T14:55:00.004+08:00

I JUST WANT TO SAY.....
haHAha...loVE mE noW...??

Waiting.....here.....

2009-05-21T14:40:00.005+08:00

if i say im not impatient im lying.....
if i say im not suprise im cheating...
if i say i dunno anything im bluffing....

by 9 hours from now...im going on in the age i waited quite a while since form 3...the age i think im permitted to be free and do my own real decision for the real time ....

hehe,time to think i just cant believe in sooner im going to this age being single and not been taken yet...haha...just not believe....but maybe if there are potential ones that i see and know..i wont make the same mistake now...dear Lord..im dunt wan to be single...i feel lonely here....:(

but Realising im going to be.....Dang...Dang...Dang...

21.

let see wat will a do and achieve during dz age....:)TODDLES!!

Look into My Eyes..Give me food....

2009-05-19T12:42:00.007+08:00

huhu,y m i saynig dz...cause i took dz pics when the nite when i came my auntie's house at Tuaran,its was fun to sleep n enjoying the country site of my life ..Well,when i came in...he is urging me to give him some food...the eyes is kinda shining..n dz kind of fluffy fur which colour its mixture of blonde and if u see this pics..dun say u dun have any nightmare after dz....i assure u....will be...:)

ohhh..u would say so cute rite...well,dun day dreaming..coz he's gonna ask u in ur sleep....hahahaha...Gotcha...!!

My naughty Niece n Nephew...love them

2009-05-19T12:12:00.008+08:00

Sometimes think about it, its fun to have small baby and children around u..wonder step by step they understand and figure that ur someone they can count on to...
Well,this is my story about three cute cuddle triplets Twins baby,ILA ,ILI, ILO...which i visiting twice a year...well,actually just twice i saw them...but its a natural feeling when u get with children which u see their action and reaction towards u and the differential's when u interact with same age or older people...like me...haha...just kiddin...im not dat old....huhu,still coming on to 3 days till me gettin lucky on my revolution age everyone young dude or gals been dreaming on...tell u sooner....haha....

Well,here some pics of them during i was in K.K......at my cousin house at Sepanggar...

ILA

ILI

ILO

tHEiR
cUTe N nAUgHTY
eXPRessIOn......:x

DUh...im blur....:S

2009-05-19T12:00:00.003+08:00

For the first time in my freaking unreleased life, i become sudden blur of my daily timetable of my studies time....heerrrrhh....mad at myself,i just realise i have class at nite..n coincidence i woke up early..haha,its kinda a boring,boring,boring should i tell more...nothing to do day of my life...and really dunno wat to describe myself waking up with an empty and blur face looking at the laptop screen wondering wat to do till the evening....in a matter of taking about 30 minute,sitting down n thinking...Watta...Watta...Watta do with myself on 4 a.m in the mornin..well,i take the brilliant idea and go to sleep...well,is the only option i get during that early and uncertain mind thinking wat to do at 4 a.m....haha...maniac rite...well,i woke up in a nightmare..guess wat...5 a.m....hahaha...i though i slept a long period..i was a long story dream..but its 1 hour dream...Oh My Gosh...a 1 freaking hour...its just like a zombie movie i dipping about...hummm...well,i take a look and end up watching Dane Cook : Vicious Circle...kinda funny and laugh my self out...maybe room next door think im crazy..laughing myself out loud...hurmm..its it loud...hurmmm..i dunno...huhu:)

Back in nEW ways..Image Renew

2009-05-18T11:44:00.003+08:00

Its been 4 days i didnt insert myself into internet coz i was enjoying my trip in K.K...hehe...dispute that i didnt have anywhere to destinate to...

in certain moment where i have change my hair colour too a new kind of style which maybe surprise a lot of viewer who is watching at me...in sense that my new color hair named XCoffeeX is really match my skin and the tone of my face...sincerely face make-over....

here are my new hair pics:)

:D haha...kinda new really lost me....

Goin have fun...yippie..

2009-05-14T22:57:00.002+08:00

Im Going to K.K tommorow...
go n see my cousin n auntie....
move off on the mornin tommorow...
gotta get some fun...:)

My Late Supper (favourite food)

2009-05-13T17:14:00.005+08:00

This Food is the one of my piece of oily pancake i usually ate during late supper is this triangle fold mix with vegetable....YUM..YUM...

and then,i mix up with Chilli sauce...

this is my most favourite food which maybe doesn't have in anywhere...i really miss dz food a long time...at least i been eating it for a week..n i'm satisfied even though its only 11 days in Sandakan..: )

Every disease have a cure...

2009-05-13T16:03:00.003+08:00

Could believe what happen...i was freaking hot n drowsy when i woke up,n now my Flu attack suddenly become my diversion than i suddenly clean the whole ground floor...suprise to me..i doing something that impossible for me to do..in a hour..i cleaned the whole house,reorganize the furnitures, clean the dust of the table, swept the whole floor and guess wat..n coincidently after i clean all of this...the electric current went off...

but eventually,my flu is getting much lesser..and i feel orite now than dz morning where i keep on sneezing and juicing my nostril the whole morning...:)

Go away u,satan....

2009-05-12T23:05:00.004+08:00

man,coincidentally im been attacked by some disease call FLU...man,dz disease is making me getting weak n become much sick....cant stand a second cleaning up my nostrils..juz thinking want to rest..but my head doesnt...why my head so stubborn...

Shanks,help me from dz agony...sniff..sniff..got goeey in my nostril...ewwww...:P

Lost of track..cant think more

2009-05-12T12:47:00.006+08:00

Well,guess wat...im stuck here at home..revising my OSHA regulation while on9 instead...doin house chores while sweating a lot..well,wat can say..im healthy then...hehe...
by the way,its been crumbling 9 days since been home, and i dun find myself in any interesting mood and sometimes i feel like yelling a lot..a lot..maybe i didnt yell at the time i went to Esplanade beach before coming back to Sandakan..maybe coz of that...i try to let it out by singing but not successful..well,i was thinking of screaming during i running up on the hill at my housing area..behind all the batches of houses,the are a hill behind..maybe i round up dz evening go have a jog instead..keeping fit some say...

well,its been a rough week when i start to cry on uncertain things..well,try to think i cry almost twice oredy..when i see something emotional..hehe,btw i currently watching my old and one of my fav Zombie movie..its the best ever movie i bought.."Dawn Of The Dead"...released since 2004..my fav zombies movie ever..now the other zombies movie cant fight this movie...

the film poster

today date is 12 of May..my birthday coming...cant wait to be old today..n "im gettin old"...some say..well,think about it...its kinda scare when u start to have rough hasty voice,n often seing ur height gettin higher..n even the certatin part of ur mind is started to grow on u and sometimes u cant accept the fact that ur growing an inch everyday...surely some child say,"i wanna stay young so i can have fun, fun, fun.

well at least i noe i have to do something.....goin back to Miri in 5 days...: )

Unknown Day...Today..Now..Changes will happen soon

2009-05-10T21:15:00.007+08:00

Its kind of difficult when its oredy a week pass and u suddenly thinking...
oh my gosh,left 5 more days here...wat to do in dz five days...
y cant it be a month my holiday...

there are lots of happening..like suddenly i been ask for my phone number by Jill..huh??wat the heck..yup,she's one of my TRBR family member...and start to tease each other around until now..u see..i kehabisan credit oredy...haha,very funny Jill...but in the fact,i found something annoying instead..of all,she wan to bond with me...and when she tease,dun play2...she wont stop find ways to bring u down...

by matter i not really noe her that much,but we act like we noe each other...haha,Jill if u read dz..im bringing u down..huhu...juz kiddin....hahaha...very funny try to think of it...Well...wan to buli2 me ahh...but thanks,i havent laugh for long time since my break up with a cheater....hurmm,now u noe im sad...well,recover by laughter...thanks Jill...

Marley the dog....

2009-05-09T00:10:00.004+08:00

Well its hard to believe that someday the things or your belongings that you been loving,taking care and wanted it to remain there for the rest of your life suddenly slips off from your heart and leaving you alone with sadness and unwanted to believe that its going away and never came back...this is where i watch the movie that my sis borrowed from her frenz,and i watch it few hours ago with them..and i aware that firstly i just act naturally coz it is a movie..but in one sense i was on the way to connect myself iwth internet,in that fact the connection didnt help much..so i insteadly just watch the movie...and i could tell u if u have a dog or any kind of pet where u love and taking good care while bonding with them every time you are sad,happy,angry or even depressed..they will always comfort you and hear your annoying stories..well,my dogs they really hear my annoying stories..huhu

Well,when i saw the movie and try to understand why dogs sometimes test your patience and there were you have a big...big...i mean big test to confront with and supremely you could caught in their sense of nature of this cute cuddle living which need your attention quite a time..i noe i did,when i spend my holiday semester break with three of my dogs..or the disaster hooligans which you will see anything which if anything that they can destruct, you be there cleaning up the mess...i sure did...

Well,i have three monster or cute little devil in disguise dogs which name Jojo (Rottweiler mix Doberman), Mickie James (Rottweiler mix Alsatian), and the Master of destruction Betsy (full bread of Alsatian)..these three devil dogs are on the hooked where this is the time you started to worry bout the environment of the house and your belongings...

but instead of the trouble and the destruction happen,they always find a way to be cuddle up and when you hold them..the feeling getting the impression of loving them more than someone which doesn't appreciate you sincerely...
btw,dun forget take a lot on this movie...'Marley and Me'...to you all like dogs...:D

Nite Dat i couldnt Deleted..Forever (:'( )

2009-05-07T23:50:00.003+08:00

Beribu Hari Ku Lalui...
Bersama Engkau, Keluargaku....

Tim Rakan Belia Remaja (TRBR)..once i was a part of it..once left out of it..but still be part of this gigantic and growing family which is my second nearest miss the most person or even all of them of course....

in other thing is I meet a few..i dont think a few but around more than 20 above which im quite suprised and happy cause i get to noe more n more siblings in His son,Jesus Christ.....

Kinda missing my cousin,Nazia which will futher her educational level at Matriculation At Labuan Island...in fact she wont be alone,seems there will be Cornelia with her together..dont forget Leon n Rey are same too....

well,suppossed tonite should be a better nite to express my inner story which i kept, n kept, n kept...but juz now i did express everything out..n i feel relieve that part of the misery is out of my chest that been kept quite a long time...

Wewewe...im crazy..:P

2009-05-07T01:47:00.003+08:00

As i was thinking here..well its early in the morning,and i the only guy that havent sleep at 01.49 a.m..dunno wats happen to me but i dont like wat happen to me..maybe im suffering imsomnia without notice...maybe..really cant sleep..hurmmm..

yup,a lot happen when i arrive here..like when i was at home..i was damn..really damn boring cause i have nothin to do,i have no one to talk to in the mornin...and im lazy want to play games which available in my laptop and the CPU at home..but i don't felt want to play at all..but when i was in Miri..i played almost everyday..seriously...

but in a matter affect the moment is my eyes are heavy but my mind and soul of myself is pushing my head awake now...oh my,could this be ever worse...by the way,i awake u read..so i do something if the line still on...here wat happen in facebook..i suddenly have mood to play it even though my head doesnt react to it..see,im goin insane because cant go to sleep...hurmmm....

and last im still wondering all my school frenz here are really unavaible seems..so its kinda hard cause can't ask them to hang out..so disaster boring lha...help me please from misery...ahhhh:'(

My LA LA Land ashamed.....

2009-05-02T09:44:00.004+08:00

heyhey bloggy,im at K.K.I.A....terminal 2...eating my breakfast,n now online at the place i eat...huhu,just arrive...and feeling uncool in sense that it just like nothing is real..going back home but not that very exciting already...i dunno y...??

its seem that i not really not that excited anymore flying anywhere..quite tired now...still got 3 hours from the flight back to Sandakan...well,three freaking lonely hours sitting maybe 1 and half at laptop and drink, and another 1 and half wandering around and reading my novel...btw,my stomach is crouching..i think i need the toilet for god sack...

well,i started to mingle oredy....my stomach i mean..here my pic at airport...
write to u later...ciau...

A little bit of rest...from goin insane...seriously:P

2009-04-24T14:32:00.005+08:00

Fuhhh...i need a bit a rest today..kinda dying oredy my 20 G brain...almost full the index and information downloaded in my brain...its been freaking 6 days of study non-stop...wishing i can stop but all this time..i feel a bit ill and something often cant even sleep..eventhough on the bed,still cannot dream..hihi..somekinda disease i think...

btw,kinda funny coz today at Boulevard Mall got "Education for All Expo" start today until Sunday...hehe, all is Technic school so their are a lot of school from Sabah and Sarawak...hehe..okey but not many people pay attention to it.

beside that,there are photo expo too...a lot of pics taken by different kinda people and some from the photo studio,some from private photographer, and others are from the Sarawak Photography Associations ... here are some pics round up

All alone in Wonderland....

2009-04-23T12:41:00.005+08:00

haha...funny topic to say..im all alone in wonderland..actually its an amusement center and its in front of me where i sitting surfing on9 to see wat happen...in the net...of course!!

hurmm,simply to say its been suffering 4 days without class...think about it i miss going class oredy...not College ahh...hahaha.....:)

humm,nothing to write eventually just las nite i went in bed early..around 10 pm..wow,long time didnt sleep early..then awake at 2 a.m...then revise a bit then sleep back at 3...huhu..kinda heavy my eyes then..not sleepy but blur looking on the alphabet for four straight days...sometimes,i think im goin insane without realising it...huhu..okey,im in Boulevard Mall now..as i say all alone in wonderland...:D

btw,Red Dot is still at my cheek...ahhhh,stress!!!:x

finisto the seconda revisio..haha..mehico(mexico..actually)

2009-04-22T09:42:00.004+08:00

fuuuhhh..just finish my second revision on Machinery Safety...huh..kinda took me one and a half day to finish reading regulation in that subject...OSHA 1994,FAM 1967,and much more...u see i remember now..huhu....

well,there still two more subject plus Office English which only focus on grammar,memo and writng..i guess left 4 more days to revise..huh,i started to go insane in matter in fact...wandering why dun the days pass by faster so i can go over with this tense of stress turning round and round on my head...

yup,btw..this movie is coming up soon...my Idol is here.....

here i am...to say...

2009-04-21T12:55:00.002+08:00

my virtual in making...my old name tag...cant believe it could be an art....:D

Curious Me.....

2009-04-21T12:49:00.003+08:00

huhu...somebody got a lot to tell now...u noe who....
i just checking a sight and suprisely unsuspected cant tell wat i saw...when do u two met Sis...me no likey this situation,if like dat is not acceptable...hugging him,OMG to myself...kinda want to noe a lot of...wait for me then when im back...??huhu:>

*Im Not Okay (I Promise).....

2009-04-20T14:18:00.013+08:00

heyhey bloggy,there two post before this is my few days happening...well,the real story that im not really okey..i dont felt okey then....

its started with when i went jogging at the park...its not that far from the house..i use the shortcut through few pathway from few houses...hehe,jump to the topic...i on the way to the park..in the middle of the way,i saw a nice fur and only black and white dog...its currently doing its business there,but one thing about it..after its picks some cracker wrapper to cover it...Funny rite?well,my day haven't done yet....

the dog is doing its business again...after its covered the another dump

but when after i saw dat funny scene..well,there another dog...but this dog is quite sickening looking...its has droppy eyes,really crappy ears, and its have contact saliva on its mouth..ohh,gosh try to this a bit of second,the dog gots Rabies...and its looking at me..its seems like wanna come near me...when i was on the spot,i try not to look at it..well,its successfully distract myself from getting bitten alive by the dog...man,thank God nothing happen...

next thing,after went back from 5 rounds of tiredness jogs,i went back..take a bath and surrender myself on the bed...after 9 something,almost 10...then my journey start with writing in exam points...well,seriously talking..after 3 semester,i felt nothin doin exam points..but last nite,ohh My head..just wont wanna accept writing..well,consider my right cheek been attacked by Red Dot invasion...hard bump on it..real serious pimple...seriously talking im going crazy writing points...

cracking your head for 32 note in a week...

but in matter of trying to survive stress and painful pimple on my face,at least i did finish it just now,with eight note @ class slides..fuuhhh...thanks to the magic of sound,MUSIC...listening to old vintage song at least redeems the stress and make me stop thinking of the pimple....ouch..pain!!

And news flash,Manchester United lost to Everton on penalty shot-out in Old Trafford dz morning for the places into FA Cup final...result 0-0,but Everton wons by margins 4-2..well,they gonna meet Chelsea at the final on 30 May...yippie,gonna see the match on dat nite after my final exam in the morning...wish me study best...Toddles!

Ate me biscuit

2009-04-20T13:52:00.008+08:00

Currently two days ago,i dun noe ate this biscuit is it legal goods for health but i ate it half way and just realise that the manufacture brand was ban by the health ministry of Malaysia..the brand is certified from China..i dun noe i ate poisonous biscuit or not...hahaha:D..hope not...

Im large red dot need Nath's attention...

2009-04-20T13:40:00.006+08:00

Aiyo...here come the Red Dot on my right cheek..what happen to the theory of study too hard,pimple gets stress too...hihi...wat heck dat happen to me...suprisely i dun have class today cause now study week,no attending class a week but i still need to come out from the house..Soooo bored...with me whole day writing note pointer for exam..be cautious rite...well,just finish revise and writing points for Occupational Safety II...tonite think its gonna be Machinery Safety..hehe,stress ody my cheek...see the red bump at my cheek

God way of telling u.....

2009-04-19T14:31:00.011+08:00

Unconcerned subject written on my mind and my heart suddenly in past 9 days after Our Lord Jesus Christ have taken suffer and domainly taken pain and punishment unbared to be spoken...he have been taken each of our sin with HIM during that day...and redeemly on today I couldnt feel much better that yesterday, just dont noe y...because on that 7 days ago since he ressuraction back on earth i felt a decent expression and differences on me...

btw,heyhey bloggy...wat did i told u...i have to release my study stress somehow..and u are the reason im releasing it now...typing typical not very important thing..but exactly is written in my mind...

Well,back to the topic here..well,its started during Friday where usually when i crossing the roads,i always get trouble crossing the road...u noe two ways,the cars are really impatient to drive over u sometimes...but based on experiences,i made it done always but quite long period standing on the edge of the pavement.. well,currently since 9 days ago...i been crossing the road without any cars driving or not even a distance u see any vehicle coming in a distance me when i cross the road...suprise rite?? well i dun noe wat happen,i kinda like the condition where im just like the movie "Bruce Almighty"..where Jim Carrey puss all the cars aside...

well,different side of the story..remember when i went to Envonve Church last saturday..remember i wasnt expected Chinese Mass..but coincidence i found myself injected to understand Mandarin..awkward but really satisfied..coz u understand wat the pator saying...btw,i dun even noe how to read or say..how can i suddenly talk a bitter fluent on dat language...huh??im askin myself a question and finding the answer to dz incident....

but one thing excites me is that receiving an answer from miracle...i though in sense maybe God wants me to try harder and believe in myself dat i still have a chance.....hehe,believe in faith..dats one of God word for today Sunday Mass...i believe:)

btw,jump to my last topic...today i went to church dz early morning,there are some beautiful flower pics i took for church Garden..i cant exact find out wat kind of flower but there's one pair of the flower is quite blooming that maybe a signage for me...u noe sooner..but instead..i just leave my life to God to decide..rite Bloggy...Toddles...!!!

the blooming flower..its that a sign..no edits been done.

the church Garden....got three types of colour..white,pink, and purple.

Yup...BtW,Chelsea wons against Arsenal last nite...Yippie...another final on the hands of The Blues...thanks to Drogba last minute drive..and Malouda equalizer..we are in the FA Cup final...Wembley Stadium..didnt see the match but total happy bout it...just check it on the line just now...

THANKS TO THIS OLD HORSE...Didier Drogba

Drogba during FA Cup 2007...

Fasting at Entertaiment...Study In Style..huhu

2009-04-18T16:41:00.009+08:00

huhu..Bloggy...i writing this nonsense cause i have nothing to write then...currently total busy with Class Note's..(23 of them)..and Mid Exam papers..And my freaking set of mind...hope to bust my mental discourage now until 30 April affected 90% on Safety,safety, and safety of ur house,workplaces,public and somewhere around the corner of your house...where i have to pace my mind to it...sad...:'(

hehe...insteadly going crazy..well its seems i have to write to you more often bloggy,its a matter where i couldnt touch my 4 friends connection device..Friendster,Facebook,Tagged and Hi-5...with a bit of YM and MSN also need to be prevent..hihi..scare jump to it...well,its only you bloggy that i can write to coz..i dun need to be happy,sad,angry or even envy on someone without no sense...huhu..juz playin with my mind gain...claaaazzzzy(crazy)....

yup,btw...its left 12 more days till holiday breaks...i meet a lot of person...and receive quite of complimentary from them...such as Envonve and Chris...they are from my Diposh (Diploma Safety And Health) Batch 7...u see Envonve blog its in my list...hehe,well working with them in our presentation..its quite interesting to discover my hidden self...i learn something from working with them...being self-relief that i still can connect and help someone i dun really noe..but im glad to help there...by the way,i enjoy working with them..fell like do it with God presences..love u Lord...

and besides that,i was in the College Lab yesterday..which currently close eventually...sack in the bag...well,its okey still got outside the lab..still got line...hehe:D...well,i was there with Mr.Ronnie..another lecturer in our college..he in the Student Advicer and in charge for student welfare i guess...well,last few days...i mean on Monday,I, Envonve and Chris have our Office English presentation..and thank God we bang it...huhu...haha...hihi...Stop it lah..huhu...
but back to the topic...he talk to me last nite and say something nice..he say i really have the potential in communicating with different person and majorly interact with the student in the class..well,its not my class..i match up with the whole Batch 6 students and few Batch 7..its was like agony and shaky in a while but i manage to reduce my stress and stage fright to become powerful weapon in dat time...

Well,at least now i noe why Uncle Andrew say i got PR...Public Relation...well,i noe its something hidden beneath me...at least im proud of it...well,going now..i will write in my misery study daily for time to time...Toddles,Bloggy!!huhu:D

Crazy Game Stress...:S

2009-04-14T16:02:00.009+08:00

Stress........he say....guess who...Oscar....huhu.
huhu...we just finish play Left 4 Dead...we all skip class,go play this crazy zombieing game...hahahaha....b crazy for it...
well,sis i got dat Picture This at my laptop...so im not late,n im saw it too...sorry sis....:D

well,after we play the game for 2 and a half hour,well,we went for a drink...at TeA BoX "bubble tea Cafe"...so I bought a Milky Tea Pearl for drinks....

me,Livan n Callistus

my drinks is the blue one....

well,dats all...n im still in boulevard Mall...Toddles!!

Happy Easter Mind.....huhu!!!!

2009-04-14T11:43:00.005+08:00

huhu..eventually long time oredy i didnt update u bloggy..well,kinda a lot happen so i would like too start with Easter Sunday...huhu..
well coincidence in dat day i fell something shine in my eyes...
its started when i where in Lutong, where Envonve invites me to her church for Good Friday celebration at Lutong,i dun seems to remember the church name,sorry Envonve..hihi: )
well,drop to the topic,when i went into the church..i was in the church,and suprisely im was guessing it was English mass...but when i arrive at the front church..they greet me with Mandarin....well,at least i still can reply their greetings...
then when i was in the church sitting down...then i was asking Livan...eventually Livan, me and Oscar when to the church...
well my question is....

Me : I dun noe this is a Chinese mass?

Livan: U dun noe meh..i though u knew Envonve and Chris by the language they speak?

Me : well,i just noe them a day..how should i noe ooo...??

Livan : i though u noe??

Me: aiyo...i just noe them one day,Livan...one day....!!

well,during in the mass..i really like the choir..they are the most wonderful voices..like the gift of God....hihi...the mass quite good in the story and side effects of the drama...and one thing about it...suddenly i understand the Pastor saying...in mandarin...suprise again..but its meaningful too...

later when finish,we went to have a drink and talk,talk,talk and talk......until 12....a.m.

then the next morning,i went to church as usually....awake at 6....then take a bus,with Danny and Oscar....walking in the mornin...and as usual..my prayer for me and myself...then....

i went back...HOME i mean....then i almost forget about my meeting with Envonve and Chris..but alrite,arrive at 10 minute early...thankful...well,when i arrive at boulevard mall...i was near at the elevator..then i still have a second waiting for it and i saw something like bugs bunny...Look down...

and then....we discuss about presentation...presentation..and suddenly other topic..then topic,and topic..until heavy..heavy rain....

guess wat walking in Rain..wow...like walking in the pond...hehe...at least there's no water creature..haha...
orite,dats all for now...my hand are tired..and i need to do assessment now...by then Toddles..!!!

Happy BirthDay Sis.....hehe...: )

2009-04-07T19:06:00.003+08:00

hey hey hey,Bloggy....today is a special day for my sister cause she is havin her birthday this hour...her Sweet 16 th birthday...hope u have a GREAT TIME there...hihi...btw,ur dz brother is finding u a something...so be surprise and dun ask me first...i will give u soon...btw....

When i was doing my assignment, i found some certain word in the text where its written (V/TTY)...but i relapse and taken it as Witty...huhu,someone name at my assignment so,there something make me awake for a nite where bout i finished my Computer Concept assignment in 3 hours...in other opinion,it took at least a week to done it...but i done it 3 hours and 21 minutes...huhu,cant believe and wanted to close my eyes, but in fact its finish and i sent it earlier..wohoo...hehe...

Well,there another thing...i went to presentation last few days and i just discover my inner voices suddenly change...OMG,i wonder...and wonder...why sudden change of voices...i want my old voices back...cant sing anymore soft songs...ohhh nooooooooooooo....huhu....okey,at last happy birthday SIs...cant send it through
call and msg...im quite busy with presentation..bha,TODDLES!!

One Cute Girl....can cure ur inner self...

2009-04-06T19:58:00.005+08:00

Why in such a way i even suddenly could be falling in touch with the cuteness of a small girl which treats me like a person...well,this is a small and rather cute little girl...She always call me Abang Bayu...based on the story "Jelita" at TV3...every 2.30 p.m...where the actress is Agnes Monica....huhu,she sometime a great redeemer of such as an cute child who understand ur feeling...

Well,at least she noe something someone close to me didnt noe my feeling...i even told her i like who and what i wish...she say just hug the person i like and never let go....wonder a 4 year old girl tell me love advices..hehe,btw,im quite amaze bout wat she say and believe in....At leats there is somethin here i can fell secure in my heart and someone make me happy for a while....

btw,her name is Anis...my friends cousin from his Auntie at Miri...
Does she looks like Boo from Monster inc....hihi

Somethin for lunch during few Days...

2009-04-06T19:28:00.006+08:00

heyhey bloggy,well its kinda funny cuz i have a lot to story-story here...so where should i start now...hurmmm..huhu..
well,i have dz food...where here are famous of dz dish name Lekor Ikan....

huhu,i ate around twice a day...i really dun think its healthy but im craving to eat dz food...by the way,its a really fast food for me dat time....

huhu...makan always oso dunno good or not...but at least isi perut bha kan....

Headache attacks me...

2009-04-04T19:23:00.004+08:00

Ahhh...sakit lha my head..banyak betul mau pikir dz....
Dunno why i must pikir banyak2...now my head jadi pusing....
hur...hur....sakit lha my KEPALA.....:' (

To all the driver...must see movie....huhu !!

2009-04-03T19:34:00.007+08:00

The movie of the year.........The most modification film ever...

well,its a great action plus speed scene,its totally for any racer life out there...its total modification of cars there,the 2nd episode from the 1st film...its connect the stories behind the first film...no failure to impress even this is a total expose movie in the season....there will be more sooner cause Dom (Vin Diesel)is goin to escape from prison bus...i saw it last nite...its the bomb witha a lot of nitrous speed sound and system...most impress muscle car....vs with imports...huhu..that's all...TODDLES!!

No reason to say....

2009-03-30T19:39:00.004+08:00

Wonder...wonder...wonder....bha so damn sakit ati lha today...
start from afternoon now banyak perkara kasi sakit ati ku jak nie....
hurmmm,betul2 lha...since afternoon kena hujan lebat lagi..dha lah dun hav shelter...terpaksa jalan kaki p parkson....hurmm,wat can say....

then,dah lah kena hujan..then i open fs,kena mengena msg bodoh,paloi,s!@t betul...u do he think he is,baru jak noe for 24 days,dha act macam kenal kitak...tok i dun like tok...in a way,he who is not a chapter of my life...mind ur own business....damn....!!!!

I'm not in the MOOD now....

huhu...get whats rite???:P

2009-03-29T19:59:00.007+08:00

heyhey bloggy,kinda today..Today i mean,im now in total sadness wher coincidence wher the person i really wanted to say that i wanted to.....ehem,dun tell lha...
hurmmm,is away to K.L oredy...im sad,depress,and unacceptable..but instead still im not goin to back down on dz..still wan to make try my will and faith,believe in meself now..im gonna try,dear god im sincere....huhu..btw,im currently hearing a lot of sad songs...here are my top 5....my new favourite Indonesian Band.....syok lagu mereka....

~ Jangan Pernah Berubah - ST12
~ Cinta Ini Membunuhku - D'Masiv
~ Beautiful - Akon feat Colby O'donis
~ Saat Terakhir ~ ST12
~ Cinta Diujung Jalan ~ Agnes Monica

hurmmm,stil sad...orite,orite...plz no sad now...mau nyanyi puas2 lha...ahhh,tapi karaoke lha...huhu...tambah sedih...
yup]:,orite sis,the name is sorority row yha...nanti i cari....hehe...got u....oredy see dragonball evolution in the cinema today..okey..okey lha the movie...but kinda funny oso....but wher got Son-Goku urang puith...but make sense lha the story...i give 3.5 star for it....dun forget to check it out urself if u a dragonball childhood fan...KAME HAME....HAAAAAA......:)

"Dream"-self impression(suddenly think of faith)

2009-03-23T19:43:00.005+08:00

Dream is not meant to be achieve

Dream is an animated view of a person

Dream is a mind of an empty space

Dream is meant to be fulfill in life

Dream is a conclusion of a decision

Dream never bring love together

Dream is an item meant to brought up

Dream is a word of the mind and soul

Dream is only wishes meant to be secure in life

Dream doesn't help a person understand him/herself

Dream is a wonderful feeling just only for temporally

Dream is where you reach into something not exist

Dream is a way to be happy for a while

Dream is to be intellectual person

Dream is reach out your inner desire

Dream gets us thinking over our life needs

Dream is an entity of someone desire

Dream is suppose show a touch of miracle from inner self

Dream is a vision of feeling inside

Dream only for a while, too long it may kill you...Toddles!!!

Transportation to Marudi(by River)...Express Boat

2009-03-23T12:42:00.014+08:00

the express driver waiting for passenger

take a look inside

me in the express

from the inside

what does it mean "HUET"?

side part of the express boat(doorway)

the front side of the express

time schedule to Marudi (set oredy)

a row of express boats

bridge connected Kuala Belait to Kuala Baram(way to Brunei)

a side look of an express boat

in coincidence that i was waiting on the Kuala Baram jetty,usually for people who wanted to go Marudi...this transportation is the first highlight of water transportation which Sabah do not have...this transportation exist because the Sarawak district area which Marudi is stated as a village, this express would take in an amount of around 80 till 100 person per trip which cost rm 20 per person...this trip is around 2 and a half hours,which pratically would be the fact i sleep myself away while im inside the express,which cause by the air-conditioner which make me sleep,hihi..well,its quite a fun but also kinda sleepy while in it..who like bumpy ride,can also fell the breeze of the river air...hihi,well thats all i can compliment this transport,im just want to share an experience transport that never been used anywhere...TODDLES!

My Reading Corner....Twilight

2009-03-20T19:50:00.004+08:00

i started to read my new novel from last week...its already half the book i explore and passionate..
its quite almost the same as the epic film as i saw...
by the way,its quite fascinating book...total English accents and unbearable language to be notice...
Simply to say...i give 4 and a half star..well,if i finish read it..i would tell u later k....TODDLES!!!